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Here I am, embarking on a journey to who the hell knows where. I have no friends thus far. Is it my job to make friends? Will users come find me? Should I have just stuck to pen and paper? Too late. I sit here at around 1 am thinking of how i should be asleep yet i continue to tap away on this keyboard. I should be getting good sleep tonight considering (since it's technically monday) that hell week has begun. It's crunch time with opening night on Thursday and the One-Act competition on Friday, should be fun...that was a little sarcastic. Sometimes I find it can be hard conveying sarcasm over the internet. This weekend has been alright, I guess. A tad boring. I went to a party on saturday which was kind of fun, not really though. Although I did talk to Max for a long time. If no one's reading this I'm explaining for nothing but it's alright. Max and I kind of sort of dated sophomore year and things ended badly and I still liked him a lot. We would hook up occasionally even though I knew it was just me torturing myself because he definitely didn't like me. Max has a girlfriend now, although I bet their relationship isn;t that deep. I'm not being hopeful, I'm being realistic. We kind of flirt, but I thinkhe jsut enjoys the sport of it. I may be wrong, but think it's more of me wishing I got that special attention from him that I did so long ago more than having true feelings for. He's the first guy I've ever had real feelings for. Maybe the only one. A disclaimer: I'm a real cynic when it comes to love, at least at my age. I'm not really the type for relationships. I'm really more of one to play the field...a lot haha. This whole misnomer thing gives me a sense of freedom. Anyways, I guess I should try to sleep. I'll write again when I get a chance. And maybe get some friends? if someone reads this, tell me, do I go out and friend a whole bunch of people I don't know? Or is that not how it goes?
Potentially Doomed To Be Forever Friendless,
Callie
Potentially Doomed To Be Forever Friendless,
Callie
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